I lost my son in 2014 to a sensless act of violence. A year ago I began a series of paintings I call Altered Soul. These paintings are a part of my healing. 'Looking for Happy' is one of nine in the series.
The Buddhas depicted
are known as the Happy Buddha. In this painting they remain somewhat hidden, in
the shadows or behind objects. This is representative of a search for happiness
but not quite finding it. One feels it’s just around the corner but never fully
is our connection to the different aspects in our lives that define our
happiness. Life is representative by the twig of small flowers, not in life
sustaining water, but in cold marbles. The twig has been cut from its’ Mother
hanging pendants, one the Endless Knot representing a connection and link with
our fates and karmic destiny and second, the Golden Fishes symbolize happiness.
The Asian vase, for the most part, is random Chinese characters. But, at the
bottom of the center line are characters representing ‘Mother’ and ‘Warrior’.
The left vertical line actually says ‘Christopher’ in English followed by the
symbol meaning ‘Son’.
bowl at the top is purposely left vague indicating a silent song or nothing to
sing about and the tea pot is representational of a hope for emotional healing
A wilted and almost dried up daffodil (scientific name narcissus) gazes into a tri-folding mirror and sees only himself as beautiful and all else (the purple tulip) surrounding him as not as perfect, beautiful or as delightful as he sees himself to be. When in reality, it is he who is ugly on the inside and outside because of his conceit. The dragonfly represents self delusion and the bubbles allude to the brevity of life.